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All The Lovers - Kylie

2011-02-14T10:51:00.000+08:00

damn sick

2007-12-22T06:46:00.000+08:00

haix... i'm sick liao... having bad cough, fever, headache n flu... i been sick alr 4 days liao... ydae i went 2 work even sick den flu till nose bleeding blood... make mi so xin ku... :( think i stop liao... sick till cant write... hopefully can recoverfully...

haix

2007-12-05T20:21:00.000+08:00

haix... wy lao tian always do dat 2 mi de... ): 2dae i was at my working place do damn stresses... oso damn despressed... ydae when i was otw gp back hm i keep on listen jay chou ' wo bu pei ' repeat again n again... i dun noe wy oso... listen till my heart damn sad... cos de lyrices is wat i feeling lorx... sighx... maybe wo zhen de bu pei tai bahx... maybe i looks ugly, fat n ETC... i dun noe... think i will gv up on him... bud... i maybe gor not much time liao... my time now gor limted... haix.. see how bahx... bud den i will treasure my life n timing de... i dun wan 2 waste my time n life anymre liao... even 2dae otw back hm i still listen 2 de same song 1 whole dae... i shld single 4ever mahs ??? hiax... sat gor 1 interview at simei east point... bud de working place at T3... i dun noe i can tahan 2 job mahs... think can bahs... now is dat i wan 2 earn mre money... $$$$ hahas.... sound lite money face... =.= i not money face lorx... cos my family nowadae abit problem lorx... so mux earn mre money... hehes... think i stop here liao... go n slp liao... nowadae i keep on late 4 work... sighx... haix... zzzzz

sad

2007-11-22T20:37:00.000+08:00

i damn sad... ): coz my grandmother passed away at 15th nov... sobsob... crying out loud... at 1st was at ttsh... den she went ops aft ops straight away go ICU room till 15th nov morning... when all go hm & shower within 3 hrs... we heard a bad news frm my relative... my grandmother passed away @ 0438hrs... haix... sighx... when funeral 2nd days jasmine, shawn, andrew n mak come my grandmother funeral till 20th nov only shawn, jamine & andrew... lucky they come down n accompany mi... if not i will keep on crying till songka... bud den within 1 week i din slp well... bud... within 1 week i wish he can down accompany or wat de... bud i noe he wont come down de... bud... when i sad i will thinking of him make myself cool down... when songka dat days i still crying... argh... sobsob... ): even now i still sad... tmr i will post my grandmother funeral pic... ): think i gor 2 stop liao... if keep on writing i will cry...

haix

2007-11-06T19:45:00.000+08:00

haix... ydae n 2dae i keep on kena scolded by my boss... ydae n this moning once i wake up my mind keep on thinking messy... i dun noe... den all in my mind gor messy shadow... keep on doing wrong things... my boss ask mi derrick wy u keep on doing wrong things is ter any prob... >.< when i miss him i will looking at my fone dat we took foto or his foto den i will smile n thinking of fri dat we enjoy n help him an mo... i only think of this den i will smile... if not my boss will ask wy my face so sad... =.= den my both hand gor alot of injuring till now having fully recover... ): everytime i miss him i will take out my fone 2 look his foto... bud on fri dat time is really happy worx... sighx... bud i really miss him alot... 1 mre things let mi damn sad dat... he ask mi 2 gv up... bud... i told myself no matter wat i wont gv up de... den i will waiting 4 him even till die i still will waiting 4 him de... last 2 yrs ago i wanted 2 tell him dat i lite him... bud... when last few daes i told dat is alr too late liao... ): i really dun noe wat 2 do... bud i really luv him n miss him alot... den when i otw gg hm on de train i suddenly crying on de train when i listen mp3... den when i slping half way auto crying oso... i dun noe wy lite dat... i shld dat i sure failed de... bud i wont gv up... den i feel dat he alr hate mi liao... am i so scary mahx ??? i oso dun noe... argh... >.< sobsob... messy i luv u... i been asking myself am i so failed... i will be single till he accept mi... if not i will single 4ever... somemre i wont become his 3rd triangle de...

happy, sad n emo by 2/11/07

2007-11-03T21:51:00.000+08:00

haix... so tried... aft dock off work straight away go channl outing... yawnzzzz... i was otw at town mit them de... den jasmine call mi wer is aljunied blk 72 playground wer... =.= den i take tain 2 amk aft dat i take cab go aljunied... aft dat when i rch ter she alr found de place liao... >.< den aft dat we frm blk 72 walk 2 blk 47 2 take cab... we walk along 2 blk 47 dat no cab lorx... we alr late liao... >.< they waiting 4 us 1 hrs plus lorx... haix... i feel gulity lorx... dun noe... den we go ps bk having our dinner... we eating our dinner i make alot fo funny out... those lite dirty way & thing... hahas... den gor 3 table... 1st table is dirty minded table... oops... 2nd table is anit... 3rd take is biz table... hahas... den mre noisy is our table 1st table... hahas~~~ den aft our dinner left 3 of us... we go buy movie tix 1st... we buy stardust thx at ps we choose our seat back row @ 0300... xiaomessy seat on D5, mi seat on D6 & jasmine seat on D7... den we go parkline ter play pool... i find dat messy & jasmine play pool pro lorx... actually 3 of us pro lahx... hehex~~~ den aft pool we go cina ter watch movie... b4 we mit i alr lite dat person liao... den when we mit in de 1st place i alr lite dat person liao... den dat person alr gor lover liao... haix... den i only can behide dat person mo mo de luv dat person... haix... ): sad sad... bud i relaised dat i lite dat person... i dun noe wy i care somebody make dat person feel i busybody... care ppl oso wrong mahx... argh... wy lidat de... den go out i pay 4 dat... i was thinking i not dat gud mahx... haix... sigh... i think i suit 4 single 4ever... not suit into relationship n suti 4 fren de... sobsob... wy i luv some1 so xin ku... see ppl in luv so xin fu...

happy

2007-10-27T08:39:00.000+08:00

i so tried now... haix... aft dock off my work go jurong point buy jay chou 8th album den go hm take bath den mit my fren... go orchard 2 celebrate my 24th bdae... hehex... mi n my fren mit at plaza sing starbuck... 1st thing we go n buy movie tix... den we go cathay ter billy bomers eat dinner... i enjoy our dinner lorx... i order O fish n chip, green grasshopper, n soup... bud den de fish n chip damn big lorx... =.= i eat damn full... >.< we buy pleasure factory is R21 show... =.= bud den we watch this show not nice de... i rather watch hero lorx... kaox... bud my bdae present is dat i din expected de... this present is damn COOL... woah... i really din expected dat my fren bought jay chou concert 2008 $98 bucks tix... woah... weeeeeeeee... i damn happy n best present de... hahahs... coz my fren ask mi what present i wnt... so i say i wan jay chou concert 2008 tix... i cfm wont 4get this dae de... :P den in midnite went 2 tpy mit jasmine 4 chit chat... hehex... sianx... sleepy... yawnzzz...

no breath

2007-10-20T13:58:00.000+08:00

haix... 1dae i work in IDS company busy till fri... >.< this job is 4ever wont do finish de... kaox... some more morning stand till dock off work... haix... bud... can train my leg... hahax... :P bud at ter noe ppl... his name call derek... bud same as my name derrick... hahas... i tot us same name as mi... bud de sound lite my name... lolx... den de 2nd dae of work my boss call mi count bra, underwear, g-string n etc... all r ger item lorx... kaox... >.< really TMD... kaox... when i count all i was thinking dat pls kill mi... =.= kaox... haix... i thinking siao liao... coz once i touch ger item my hand & body damn itchy... kaox... =.= is lite WTH... haix...

tried

2007-10-15T21:07:00.000+08:00

haix.... nowadae damn tried... keep on work... sighx... think i gonna crazy liao... den these few dae i work till now keep on standing... my leg gonna broke liao... >.< T_T dun think can continue work dat job liao... nid 2 find another job... haix... arghhh~~~ den keep on OT OT OT OT... so tried.... den last few day i went 2 sub court 2 bail my fren brother... haix... den dat dae wait whole dae... morning 8 plus rch ter till evening... rch hm nite 9 plus... den i miss all my fren... i think i stop here liao... tmr gor 2 work n stand 9 hrs and 15 min...

happen on last 2 day

2007-10-08T12:35:00.000+08:00

rem in sat noon... i went 2 city hall 2 shop... aft dat i was thinking 2 ask my fren come out de bud wnd up my fren cannot come liao... haix... den i gor no choose lorx... haf 2 shop 4 myself... den when i wan 2 go other my wallent lose it liao... >.< i was lite suay... bad lucky sia... haix... arghhh~~~ den i call all my fren den i walk along frm city hall - orchard.... woah kaox... once i rch orchard 1st thing i go n make police report... aft make police report i wanted 2 go shopping de... bud... haix... den i walk frm orchard - woodlands... is another kaox... >.< is really TMD de... haix... den i walk hm... sighx... si bei suay sia... den i rch hm ard 2300+++ liao... walk till my both leg gonna 2 break liao... T_T

happy & fed up

2007-10-06T09:04:00.000+08:00

ydae went 2 dat person hus in de morning... althought is damn tried... bud i still go dat person hus... b4 go dat person hus i bought breakfast go dat person hus... i eat guo tao... when i was eating my breakfast dat person come n disturb mi... hahax... bud is ok ahx... aft i eat my food i go room n play ps2... i feel i noob in ps2 game... =.= den aft dat we start 2 make alot of of gud thing... hehex... i wont say what is de gud thing... bud 4 us is gud can liao... =x when dat person sis dock of skool rch hm den i stay awhile den go liao... coz my family gor prob ask mi go hm... >.< aft i leave dat person hus i went 2 eat fish n chip... dat fish n chip quiet ok lahx... bud waiting damn long... =.= when i rch hm my family told mi dat my grandfather at hosptial... i was think dat wtf lor... this is call family prob mahx... kaox... i dun care my grandfather de... i damn hate him alot... even he die or wat i wont go his song ka... i still rem in de past when my grandmother wat he do 2 her... kaox... i 4ever wont 4gv him de... even my cousin oso wont 4gv him... all my mum side relative oso wont 4gv him de... he beta die faster... always gv us troublesome.... wtf lorx... arghhh... damn hate him in my life... if he really die i damn happy... >.< coz of him i quarrel wit my family... i was lite kaox... wy coz of him i wan 2 quarrel wit my family... no point mahx... if gor de point i wont quarrel wit my family... den in de nite time i getting gastric again... kaox... when i getting gastric i was think if some1 by my side n take care of mi when i gastric pain again... sighx... haix... dar i hope u will be my side... dar i luv & miss u damn much lorx... mauckx...

pissed

2007-10-03T18:13:00.000+08:00

arghhhhh....... damn pissed now... WTF... my mum came back frm work den start nagging at mi... bud i oso dun noe wy she nagging at mi... NB... everytime come n find mi wit no prob... kaox... >.< sometime gud sometime is lite fucking hell... kaox... >.< whole can stand nagging... wtf... arghhhhhhhhhh... feel lite wan 2 move out n stay... my mum dun like my 3rd brother 2 stay at my hus... coz my 3rd brother not my real brother... he is my mum god son... bud i treat him as my real brother lorx... bud den sometime my mum gud mood ask mi regarding abt my 3rd brother... den sometime bad mood den come my find mi 4 nagging... kaox... >.< even when i was 9 yr old my mum start nagging at mi till when i was 24 yr old... within 15 yr i cant haf an ting de life... i was thinking am i their child or get frm somebody de... >.< when dat day my mum start keep on nagging at mi or blam mi 4 nth or wat de... i feel lite wan 2 die... i damn tried in my family n cant stand alr liao... who can stand my family... my family is lite thinking of theirself de... din think of my feel is... or ask mi what i wan... when i wan 2 tell them what i wan lite gv alot of exusese... den when i slp, eating, on9 or rest always ask mi do thing de... my family din go n do de... den i was thinking am i their male maid or what... >.< sobsob... den if gor money prob 1st thing is come mi n ask 4 help... is seem lite i'm atm or what... argh... i wan 2 buy thing oso cannot... my brother buy thing din think or conside jux straight away say ok i buy it... bud 4 mi totally say no... T_T what is this 4... is fair 2 mi mahx... no lorx... is totally unfair 2 mi mahx... NOOOOOOOOOO... even i dun do or what they will nagging or my brother will fight wit mi... ): i really dun noe what 2 do... even i cant find job 2 work keep on saying mi... even my brother dun work they din say any word... bud 4 mi gor word 3 them 2 say.... arghhh.... >.< they still supporting my brother lorx... den they dun even support mi at all... no matter what i do or say 4 them is no n wrong de... haix... sighx...

tried

2007-10-02T13:29:00.000+08:00

haix... damn tried sia... whole din slp at all... whole day play pangya... hahax... ^^ 1st time play pangya feel lite sux... >.< bud den quiet not bad lahx... play pang wit jasmine, canto n rovin... hehex... in noon time play wit canto pangya he fall aslp sia... hahax... althought tried n sleepy... bud i still nid 2 go interview 2dae at North West CDC conference room @ 1400... i wan 2 slp bud cant... coz i alr miss 1 interview liao... cannot miss 2nd time interview... den now my whole body ache... ): feel some1 help mi an mo... bud... haix... sighx... poor of myself... sighx... den 2nite maybe will go person hus or go tpy play pool wit jasmine... even write blog feel lite slping... >.<

:P

2007-09-30T09:08:00.000+08:00

haix... sianx... i cant use my comp... coz my cousin always using my comp... kaox... >.< dammit lorx... wan 2 on9 go irc, play game oso cant... without using comp i damn xin ku... T_T haix... 2nd oct gor 1 interview as sales/food beravge industy... dun noe can make it anot... scare scare... if cmi den haf 2 find job again... n haf 2 wait again... sighx... i oso dun noe... bud my minds still thinking of dat person... next week gg out wit dat person... i was waiting... hehex... i feel dat i damn useless of what thing i do... bud when i pissed off, angry or what sms or call dat person i feel much better... feel with dat person wo hao shu fu worx... den my dad keep on nagging at mi... wy i dun find job n werk... sighx... keep on listen 2 this word i feel fab wei... sighx... what i can do is become babysit... coz my sis baby i help her 2 take care of it... when i help my sis 2 take care i feel lite take care my own child... n remind of my own child oso... bud... haix... >.< every nite when i slping i was crying over... i dun noe wy i crying... my tear is lite auto drop de lorx... somemre i din think of my past liao lehx... how come my tear will drop... i oso dun noe wy... den sometime i gor thinking of death... bud... i cant... coz my family needed mi 2 support family... den somemre is dat my family last few time gor prob on it... once de prob come is time 4 mi 2 headache... i wan 2 tell dat person i luv u... no matter what i will by ur side de... miss ya... luv ya... muackx... ^^

:P

2007-09-28T07:46:00.000+08:00

woah.... i damn triding... yawnzzz how come i so easy get into slp... 2dae wen 2 see my di blog again... i feel dat... is lite he cant live without his lover... alhought i noe dat he wont easy change heart... bud... i believe dat every human being will change de... dat my thinking lahx... >.< i think i abit crazy liao... last 4 days i keep on wake up n slp again... while i slping i keep on repeat this 2 song 'cry on my Shoulder & Zui Hou Yi Ci '... i dun noe wy i keep on listen this 2 song... sighx... jus wan 2 listen this 2 song... even my msg ringtone put Lovynn Kan - Zui Hou Yi Ci n my ringring tone i put Cry on my Shoulder... althought this 2 song is touching oso will make ppl sadded n remind of their past... this morning i quarrel with my dad... TMD... arghhh~~~~ i din do anything wrong lorx... kaox... my dad say mi i use overnite comp... kaox... >.< when i using sia... i still sick lorx... even no energy 2 use comp or get down on bed lorx... bud... my comp was at my hall lorx... =.= coz my aunty n cousin come my hus n stay a few days lorx... think my cousin using bahx or maybe he use overnite... den my dad say mi using overnite... i jux diam diam lorx... let him scold lorx... kaox... EARLY IN DE MORNING KENA TIO SCOLD BY BO TAI BO JI... FED UP i dun noe lahx... lucky lahx... using my brother lantop so i can go my blog... bud... aft blog i went 2 slp again... i was thinking my life izzit lay on my bed ??? i dun noe... >.< haix... sighx...

^^

2007-09-27T12:19:00.001+08:00

haix... my fever havent fully recover... still sick... somemre my cough getting worst... once i eat medication is damn powerful sia... woah kaox... eat liao ma shang slp... =.= kaox... wan 2 go irc or play game oso cannot... once finish my blog start YAWNZZZ... >..< WTF sia... i was thinking my USB gor prob or my comp gor prob... haix... sighx... wan 2 transfer some emo song 2 my hp oso cant... wish mean lao tian dun wan mi emo liao bahx... wan mi smile... ^^ hmmm... 2dae my dar dar finish exam liao... so happy... bud... dun think can company her playing game bahx... coz I STILL COUGHING... sora throat still painful... haix... sighx... so poor of mi... what am i gg 2 do sia... rest till lite death ppl no diff... =x think stop here liao lahx... tmr see can write anot is depend on my ill.... :(

tried & sick

2007-09-25T22:50:00.000+08:00

haix... sighx... 2dae i feel damn tried... this morning conference wit jasmine & canto... ard morning 7 plus i cough damn jialat... >.< den either jasmine or canto say i cough till vomti blood... woah... dat really cough till vomti blood... :( even i slp till cough till jialat... some mre my sora throat damn pain n no energy... :( is damn hard 2 slp... even now oso no energy... i think i'm sick liao... den this morning parent nagging at mi... arghhh~~~~ i dun lite early in de morning been nagging... haix... some time i feel dat am i their child... wy always nagging at mi sometime been nagging 4 nth.... sighx... wo de ming hao ku... sighx...

i rem when i was 6 yr old my parent start 2 teach mi how 2 cook liao... den dat time i still small lorx... den i was thinking so small how 2 cook sia... >.<>.< i think i stop here liao... getting damn sick... arghhh~~~

^^

2007-09-25T01:35:00.000+08:00

Ydae whole day i was crying again... haix... sighx... still using tear washing my face again... bud i told myself dat this is last time i using tear 2 wash my face liao... den 2dae all of irc fren lite DjCanTo, muacibabi, qng` n alot of fren gu li wo... really thanks them 4 concern... thanks lots... n i wan 2 thanks _jazmine_ n DjCaNto 4 helping mi doing my blog... ^^ in de evening time ard 1900 plus... mi n DjCanTo went 2 jb 4 dinner... woah... de dinner cost us damn exp... de meal cost us $25.60 ringar... in SGD ard 10 plus per person... bud... de food is damn nice... wooooo~~~~ i think it worth lorx... aft dinner we went 2 city square... bud otw 2 city square i wanted 2 call melissa... bud cant call melissa cos she stay in msia... n i noe she preparing her exam... i jux wan 2 call her 4 chat awhile, told her i luv her, accept her luv n wish her in exam flying colour... DjCanTo saw 1 skate shoes cost $49.90 ringar... is damn cheaper lorx... lolx... den he saw a shirt cost $89.90 ringar... i oso feel dat de shirt is damn nice lorx... i feel lite wan 2 buy.... bud... i gor alot of shirt n shoes liao... aft we shopping we went 2 play billard... woah... this time i lose damn jialat... i can lose him 79 point... OMG... >.< i cant believe man... worst den last few match... kaox... if i wan 2 win him i nid 2 practice alot of time den can win him.... =.= haix... when i play billard my mind is blank at all... i dun noe my mind is thinking of what... hehex... somemre i told myself mux climb up hei yin... i dun wan stuck in hei yin liaox... ^^

my almost 6 yr life

2007-09-24T12:37:00.000+08:00

I met this ger is on 15th feb 2001 in de pub... I was rem dat day i was a lonely n bored guy... when i rch pub i met this ger... dat day she a lonely ger drink along... i so went 2 her table 2 haf drink n haf a happy chat wit her... i din expected dat her will gv mi her contact nos... i was very happy 2 haf her contact nos... coz when i saw her dat i already cfm dat she is my future gf or wife... i was rem in her bdae dat was on 31th july 2001 1st time date her out... on dat day i was playing a piano 1 song 4 her n haf nice n romantic nite... 1 mre thing i din expected dat her accept my love... de next morning i ask her go breakfast den send her 2 skool... when de time she dock off skool go n fetch her n go town shopping n etc... dat was my 1st luv... so far we only quarrel 1 time coz of small thing... when we quarrel we dun tok jux only for 2 hrs... aft dat we say sorry 2 each other... hehex... Till in 31th dec was countdown 2001 last day we went 2 sentosa having a happy welcome 2002... 1st jan in 2002 we went back 2 taiwan our hometown... we went alot of place over ter... den in 2002 we play online game lite fish champ, maple, audition n alot of game... everynite we chat on fone can chat ard 3 - 5 hrs den can put down on fone n slp de... even slp oso still sms 2 each other... i was rem 1 of de nite she quarrel wit her family... den she was staying in my hus... bud dat day when my family noe her my parent was very happy... coz my family dun noe i gor a gf... so yea... when she unhappy i was trying 2 make her laugh or smile... bud... if she still unhappy i will do something 2 make her touched... think u all cant think what is dat bahx... i will make candle put on de floor n make heart shape den light up all de candle... bud is damn hard 2 make all de candle n light up when gor wind... dat day is nite time... i believe dat nite time wind damn big... bud... i do it... dat nite when she saw all i do this candle n she start 2 cry n hug mi tight tight n tell mi she luv mi n better den her ex... when all this thing r always in my mind now... bud... is happen on 2007 yr... i noe she gor pregrant... n i noe de baby is mine... when i campany her 2 see doc 4 check up... doc say she alr gor 5 mth preg... we find dat is twin daughter... dat day i was lite happy damn hell... b4 when new yr... we go went back 2 taiwan again... it was happen in taiwan dat i din think b4 de... she will knock down by mi... i was stund n shock... coz dat day i was getting wedding ring frm my car... n i din notice dat she was infornt of mi... my car was damn fast... when i wan 2 stop car i alr knock her liao... including my twin daughter oso cant help at all... I DAMN SORRY 4 MY GF N MY TWIN DAUGHTER... I DIN GU YI WAN 2 KNOCK HER DE... i keep on blame myself... her family din blame mi at all... they say is wasnt an accident n dun blame myself... they told mi dat dat car alr gor prob... i din noe dat car gor prob.... if gor prob i wont drive out liao... bud... i noe they damn sad n onli child... when i saw they crying i told myself wy this thing is happen 2 mi... bud... they still din blame mi 4 knock my gf ... haix... sighx... T_T everyday i was using my tear 2 wash my face... n sometime i cut my waist... actually we planning 070707 getting marriage... bud... all my planning is a dream... argh~~~